This is an article detailing some thoughts in my mind as I ponder my feelings towards the making and overall emotional investment towards this song.
Originally written in 2010 and then finished during the early months of 2020. The original idea came to me during my time with my first band, Silent Threat. I was in the studio with them during one of our jam sessions / hangouts and we would have friends come over occasionally. One of them got on the mic and put a vocal line that stuck with me enough to put music to it in my head.
Eventually I came around to putting it to paper with lyrics about being lonely and afraid to approach people. That was pretty much my personality in those days which is probably why I was not very approachable. When you are afraid, you come across as awkward and somewhat creepy. Story of my life.
10 years later, I revisited the song and the “chorus” came to me suddenly. I was finally able to finish this song and now it all makes sense.
– RJM (August 2020, Austin, Texas)